Its time. He is Suffering.
Showing posts with label Life Ruger. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Life Ruger. Show all posts
Thursday, February 7, 2008
When do you know when...
OK, kinda sounds strange, but, I wonder when or how will I know when its time. I hate for Ruger to be in pain and last night, he was in pain. But, this morning, he was OK, not all better, but OK. I just cant handle knowing that something is eating him away and that I dont know how he feels or if he is just a little un comfortable or totally in pain. He has never been really bad about crawling in my lap when he doesnt feel good, but, last night he did.
Tuesday, February 5, 2008
Ruger is Dying of Melanoma Cancer
Well, right now I am crying uncontrollably. My baby boy is dying of Melanoma Cancer. That is all I can think to say right now.
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
Update and My (shelly too) Theory on What is Going On
Its Not Cancer!!!! OK, here is what my theory is on Ruger. For one, he has a hole in his mouth that extends to his jaw bone and up to where his eye used to be 
So, when he eats, the food or horse manure or anything he eats goes into that hole. Well, arent there ducts involved that would lead to his sinuses and drain/ filter through his lymph node? So, the sample they took showed brain, plant and an unknown cell type. Hm, could that be food, mucous, blood, horse poop, cat poop, you name it, he has been eating it...So, that stuff packs into that hole, causes a festering continuous infection. This is why the antibiotics knock it back and then it comes back...
So, when he eats, the food or horse manure or anything he eats goes into that hole. Well, arent there ducts involved that would lead to his sinuses and drain/ filter through his lymph node? So, the sample they took showed brain, plant and an unknown cell type. Hm, could that be food, mucous, blood, horse poop, cat poop, you name it, he has been eating it...So, that stuff packs into that hole, causes a festering continuous infection. This is why the antibiotics knock it back and then it comes back...
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
Life and its Road Bumps....
OK, this month has been busy and fun!!! I am barrel racing my butt off!!! Gabe is in the best shape of his life and now life is here.....The weather sucks, working later than normal cause of the first week of school, friends are at each others throats and I just found out that Ruger might have cancer.
First off, it drives me nuts when people fight over petty bull shit. Sorry for the harsh term for all my g-rated friends, but, I am totally getting too old to deal with people who try to kill each other over stupid shit. Do I need to give an example??? I mean, if someone rubs you the wrong way....WALK AWAY!!! I mean, is there any reason to get all hyped up about something that is so frivolous as a Christmas present??? Or even a little bit of money...or both??? I dont think so. Anyhow, some how this "fight" has gotten way out of hand and now it has turned into an all out battle. Geez, am I gonna have to get the water hose out??? I mean really. Now that I have offended two of my friends I am gonna move on.
My beloved Dog, Ruger might not have just an infection. Now we are looking at the possibility of cancer. He was in great pain after we returned from our barrel race. I took him to the vet to get him some pain meds. I just took him to the local vet because the other vet said that there was nothing else that could be done. Sorry, I am not driving that far to be told that he has lost all hope in saving my dog. Not that that vet wont be my first choice for anything serious again, but, I am just not able to drive that far for nothing. So, I took him to the local vet that pulls coggins and gives out heartworm meds. He stuck a needle into Ruger's swollen lymph node and sucked out some of the black stuff that i can only describe as snot mixed with wet coffee grounds. Basically its cells with black pigment which is a characteristic of cancer cells. YEAH, BELIEVE IT OR NOT, I HAVE MORE THINGS TO WORRY ABOUT.... Anyhow, so, we sent off a histopth for further research. Anyhow, the vet gave me some good pain meds that were injectable and some awesome antibiotics too. All are injectable cause Ruger is having a hard time eating. Today, after one day of pain meds, he is back on his feet and happy. He actually was able to yawn for the first time in a long time. I think we might only do the pain meds as needed.
Next would be the whole whining about being BROKE!!! Yup, it happens. Happens more often to me than most others, but, I will live.
Oh, everything else is fine!!! I dont get to ride that much this week due to the weather and the fact that the sun is GONE before I get home right now. It will change next week, but, for now, it sucks!!!
First off, it drives me nuts when people fight over petty bull shit. Sorry for the harsh term for all my g-rated friends, but, I am totally getting too old to deal with people who try to kill each other over stupid shit. Do I need to give an example??? I mean, if someone rubs you the wrong way....WALK AWAY!!! I mean, is there any reason to get all hyped up about something that is so frivolous as a Christmas present??? Or even a little bit of money...or both??? I dont think so. Anyhow, some how this "fight" has gotten way out of hand and now it has turned into an all out battle. Geez, am I gonna have to get the water hose out??? I mean really. Now that I have offended two of my friends I am gonna move on.
My beloved Dog, Ruger might not have just an infection. Now we are looking at the possibility of cancer. He was in great pain after we returned from our barrel race. I took him to the vet to get him some pain meds. I just took him to the local vet because the other vet said that there was nothing else that could be done. Sorry, I am not driving that far to be told that he has lost all hope in saving my dog. Not that that vet wont be my first choice for anything serious again, but, I am just not able to drive that far for nothing. So, I took him to the local vet that pulls coggins and gives out heartworm meds. He stuck a needle into Ruger's swollen lymph node and sucked out some of the black stuff that i can only describe as snot mixed with wet coffee grounds. Basically its cells with black pigment which is a characteristic of cancer cells. YEAH, BELIEVE IT OR NOT, I HAVE MORE THINGS TO WORRY ABOUT.... Anyhow, so, we sent off a histopth for further research. Anyhow, the vet gave me some good pain meds that were injectable and some awesome antibiotics too. All are injectable cause Ruger is having a hard time eating. Today, after one day of pain meds, he is back on his feet and happy. He actually was able to yawn for the first time in a long time. I think we might only do the pain meds as needed.
Next would be the whole whining about being BROKE!!! Yup, it happens. Happens more often to me than most others, but, I will live.
Oh, everything else is fine!!! I dont get to ride that much this week due to the weather and the fact that the sun is GONE before I get home right now. It will change next week, but, for now, it sucks!!!
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