I have so many things in my brain right now! I m going to attempt to make sense as I type this out today! First of all, last Thursday, I thought it was going to be the worst day ever. Lynx was extremely lame. He was diagnosed with a large lesion on his deep digital flexor tendon. Basically, a spot on the major tendon in his right front leg was damaged beyond repair. Career over. Could not ride him. DONE. Well, last Thursday, I thought he had damaged it more... My friend went with me to the vet to drive me home if it was in fact, the end. That day went from despair to glee!!!! Yes, he had an abscess on that foot but the lesion is GONE. This is not a possible outcome from a lesion. Y'all, This Was God! We went from January- Never ever run barrels again to March- Leg him up and get back to work!!!! GOD!!!! I asked the vet if he has ever seen anything like this and he was simply speechless (says a lot because he always has an idea) and all he could say was I have a horse with a strong will to live, compete and a lot of prayer warriors saying prayers for us!!!
I have had so many conversations with God about this horse. In the past, before I stepped up on my next horse, my primary horse gets taken out of competition. My grey mare had tendon and knee issues. I stepped up on Ben. Ben had to be sold for tuition, I stepped back on my first horse TJ. TJ died, I stepped up on Gabe. Gabe broke his hip, I stepped up on Lynx. This time, I brought home my dad's colt Whiskey....and Lynx is diagnosed. I asked God to please not take Lynx away from me. I promised to still step up on Whiskey!!!! He didn't need to remove my best horse to push me on to my next best horse. SO many conversations and pleading with God over this. Praying in my own way. I went to church and hit the alter and just gave it all to HIM. And now, Lynx is back in the GAME!!!!!! Whiskey is at the trainer! I am excited about both horses!
I also have been wondering about my current business and if I can continue to give lessons and provide for my horses. Money is getting tight. I was pondering finding a vet clinic job to supplement my income. Well, my shoulder went bad really quick. I was then reminded that I need to be flexible right now so I can get my shoulder fixed. My insurance declined my surgery. On the plus side, that means I have time to spend with Lynx before surgery. I don't know if insurance will come back and approve but it is all in God's hands. I still can't see my clear path but I know to let God direct me. I can manage my pain if I don't over do it. Also, if I do get my surgery, my baby horse (Whiskey) can stay longer at the trainer and Lynx can get in shape giving lessons! Hey, I can coach lessons with one hand!!!! However, I might need help! Glad I have an intern! This totally flipped my brain on getting a 8-6 job at a clinic. A wise man once told me that I do best being my own boss! He is right! God will handle our finances!!!
This is all I can write right now. Things are happening daily and reminding me that GOD is on my side!!! The devil can try to chip away at me but God's love is my armor!!!!!
