Ahhhh Another Year Gone By.....

Yup, I am 30 today....No, I dont feel it and really, its been a very nice day! I went and got my hair cut....



And My Wonderful Hubby Sent Me Flowers!! Yup, he even hand picked the roses! He is so sweet!



I was wished a happy birthday by a lot of my friends! I love you guys and thank you for keeping me around another year!!

My Astrological Reading For My Birthday

Section 1: How You Approach Life and How You Appear To Others


You are a natural diplomat, reasonable, tolerant, fair,
always willing to listen to varying viewpoints, and ready to see
the other side of an issue. Even if you strongly disagree with
someone, you will try to find points of similarity and agreement
rather than emphasizing the differences. You often avoid taking
an extreme or one-sided stance on anything. You have a strong
desire for harmonious and pleasant relationships, and express a
spirit of cooperation, compromise, friendship, and fairness. You
very much want to be liked and because of your need for approval
and acceptance, you are easily influenced by others' opinions,
especially when young. You so much want to please that often you
will suppress your own intense or unpleasant feelings in order
not to offend others. Sometimes your politeness is interpreted as
phoniness or wishy-washiness. Find out more with your full-length reading...

Section 2: The Inner You: Your Real Motivation


You are a freedom-loving, strong-willed, and independent-
minded individual, and you insist upon living your own life as
you see fit, even if that means ignoring convention and
tradition. In personal relationships you cannot be owned or
possessed, and while you are willing to share yourself with
another, you do not always adjust easily to the emotional give
and take of a close relationship. Though intellectually open, you
can be enormously stubborn, opinionated, and inflexible on a one-
to-one level. You have strong convictions and feelings about
fairness and equality, and you try to live by your ideals, but
your ideals about how people SHOULD treat one another don't
always take into account human weaknesses, differences, and
needs. You probably dislike sentimentality and traditional gender
roles and "games".

Post Op

Hey guys! I had my surgery yesterday!All in all, it went great! I feel like i was gutted, but I feel lighter? The endometriosis was all over inside and outside of my uterus. On both ovaries as well. Cant ride for at least 2 weeks. That is when I go back to the doctor. I have two holes in my abdomen...one in my belly button and one down low. No vomiting! The anesthesiologist was great! He told me he would pull all the tricks out of the bag! He did too! I still have a little patch behind my ear. Dont know when I can take it off. But its not bothering me! The only complaint I have is that they used plastic tape on my inscions. I am allergic to it and I cant bear to take it off yet. Ugh. Anyhow, not much news other than it was successful! I cant really move around at all. Well, i can but I feel like I will bleed out or something...Thank you guys for the payers!

Surgery Date Moved

Yup, I have had dry heaves and lots of pain. I called the doc today and moved my surgery up to THIS Friday. I cannot do much right now. If I move around, I get sick. The farrier came out and I was able to hold two horses before I had to come inside. Went back out to feed and was able to do that, but then I came back in sick again. I am worried too. All this does not help! The longer I am unable to "do" the worse my whole body gets. Fibro will flair. So, I moved the surgery. They keep telling me there is nothing he can do till he gets in there to look around...I SAY DO IT!!! Aside from the pain, all is fine. Lynx cut his leg, but it is healing.....I will not be going to Athens this weekend. But alas, I will be better off getting this cleared up.

Pain Pain Go Away!!!

UGH!!! So I have yet another ailment! I found out yesterday that this pain that has been plaguing me since October, is in deed another disease. I have endometriosis and it HURTS! I have had this nice dull throbbing pain for a while now and that one time a month for the last 3 months has literally crippled me. Down for 24 hours crying and kicking the couch....Now, after the 24 hours, the last 2 times, it has gone back to the nice throbbing pain that just never goes away. Well, not this time. Now working on 72 hours of stabs every 20 minutes. How the heck am I gonna deal with this until January 30th? That is when I have surgery. Yup, another surgery. They will knock me out, go in laproscopicly and clean up my uterus and ovaries. Thus leaving me down for 24 hours. I am ready NOW!! They could have done the procedure on Jan 21'st but with work and meetings and a barrel clinic, I opted for a Friday surgery...surgery will now be referred to as SX....common term....
So this is my second...wait third SX since 2003. Second in two years. What is the deal? I keep having the random abnormalities!! I HATE IT!!! Can I please trade in my body???? From Fibro, RA, Heart issues (symptomatic PVC's that are now fixed) to this. I am now sitting here in pain wondering why the heck I did not get an RX to take the pain away? Prolly cause I thought I had some at the house....WRONG...I am OUT! Ugh! Save me!

I Am Having Issues....

I am having some issues and I dont know what to do. I love my Joe but I cannot get the fear out of my head. I sacked him out again today and I just had to get on him. It does not help that Brooke rode him a couple months ago and no one else. This was the second time i have crawled on his back since I hit the hard ground. He is such a good boy and so easy, but dang it, I cannot get this damn fear out of my head! It was different breaking Gabe because I had friends to help. I had Shelly to get on Gabe and ride the bucking out and fight with him. I dont have that here. Not on a consistent basis. Yeah, Brooke rode him a few times, but that was not enough! Shelly was always at the barn and always around me to help me get through those rough spots. I dont have anyone like that now and I really cannot get this fear out of my head.
I have Dodie to help down in Jasper. She offered to ride him for me and help me out but there is a fee and money is so tight that I may not even be able to run any big races. Right now, I want to give up running just to be able to ride Joe. BUT my "jobs" depend on me to go to these big shows and promote the products! AND Gabe is finally in the shape that he needs to be in to make good runs! We are beginning to fix out little issues and perfect our runs! But Joe has soooo much ability and is such a NICE horse. After I walked him a round a little today in the round pen, he did spook and it did scare me. BUT I stayed on and walked him over to the horse eating monster then we did a couple more little things and I got off before he could spook again. I am spooked. Me being scared is NOT helping the situation! I am so freaked out about that hard cold ground that I am in turn feeding my negative energy to him. :( I have been sitting here crying about it for a couple hours. I was crying about it as I rode Gabe around as well. I just dont know what to do.

Another New Job!!

OMG I now have like 7 part time jobs!! I am now a distributor for Pureform! I added the info on my site....Go Look!! Also, i had to merge my sponsor page with my photo page because I HAD to add a page for Pureform! This is awesome stuff folks! All i need now is an updated pic of gabe so I can show before and after's of the 45 days of Performance One made by Pureform!!

In All Honesty...

I am Broke. Yup, you heard me...Pay check to pay check BROKE. So, I have decided that it is barn cleaning out time....I posted the stuff to sell on my site and managed to sell a bunch of it in 12 hours!! YAY!! www.rachaelsequineservices.com Also, I am selling horses. I have too! Prices have been reduced. Horses WILL sell. I have my heart set on 3-4 to NOT sell. So, I am advertising 3 of them a lot!! I HAVE to cut my expenses! Ugh. I hate this! But dang it, when I need fuel and dont have the money to put fuel in my truck, I need to do something. Ugh. Oh and not to mention that I want to race!