Monday, June 30, 2008
Heavy Sigh...
OK, i know, you guys hate listening to be whine about pain. But, folks, I live in pain so deal with it. Yesterday My legs began to twitch. Yup, I had shaky leg syndrome...Ugh...I hate it!!! I went to bed after taking two doses of my nighttime meds (took one at 4 and the other at 8). I slept like a ROCK. I woke up feeling like I had run a marathon in my sleep!!!! OUCH!!! I think i pulled every muscle in my legs and back. Nope, I did not do anything to do all of that. It must be a BAD fibro flair up... Anyhow, I cannot even lower myself to the potty!!!! GRRRRRRRR.
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
Love and Loss...
I love all of my friends! I love to help, give you guys a shoulder to cry on, offer advice etc...So, for those of you out there that cry on my shoulder, this is just an observation!!! I love ya and will always be there for ya!!!
With that said, I will now say something that might or might not hit home. It seems to me that divorce is on the same category as breaking up with a high school buyfriend. This fact is really starting to eat at me. You see, Jeff and I dated for 7 years before getting engaged. We married one month shy of our 8 year anniversary. I love him and I vowed to LOVE him until the day I die. BUT, I made damn sure that this was the case before walking down the isle. We dated for a LONG time, yes. But, we both needed that, no matter how much I complained, we needed that. We needed to make sure that we were making the right decision. We lived together for a year before getting married. So, we also had an idea of how we would get along in the same household. Our love stayed strong, grew and bloomed. So, we made the plunge.
For all of my young un-wed friends, PLEASE make sure that He is the ONE before tying the knot!!! It makes me so sad to hear my friends and family who are close to the edge due to their marriage. My advice is not certified, it is not always right and it is my opinion. All I can offer you is support, love and a shoulder. I really dont know what to tell you when you come to me and say you have NO OTHER CHOICE and you have to leave him. Ladies, I jsut cant stomach it. But, I will still be there. I jsut hope that your next relationship is for real. Please stop and THINK before taking the relationship to the next level. I will be happy for you when you wed whether or not I feel it is a good match.......I have friends who "Think" they are in love and I had just talked them out of KILLING their boyfriend!!!!!
My relationship advice......OK, if you break up more than once in your relationship, it might just not be the one for life. If you have at any point thought of trashing it all, it might not be the one. If you have doubts, dont walk down the isle...If he cheats after you have been "committed" to each other, it might not be the one. If you are grossed out by the sight of him, it might not be the one. If at anytime, you did not want to jump him, it might not be the one. If he does not like certain things about your life (horses for example) he IS NOT THE ONE. If he has ever told you that you are worthless, he IS NOT THE ONE. If you have ever told him that he is worthless....you got it.....NO!!!!
I know that in the heat of a fight, things are said....but, it should not be easy to break up with a guy. If it is, dont marry him. It will be to easy to walk away!!! Love is patient, Love is kind...You know the rest. So, swallow this how ever you want. I love ya!
With that said, I will now say something that might or might not hit home. It seems to me that divorce is on the same category as breaking up with a high school buyfriend. This fact is really starting to eat at me. You see, Jeff and I dated for 7 years before getting engaged. We married one month shy of our 8 year anniversary. I love him and I vowed to LOVE him until the day I die. BUT, I made damn sure that this was the case before walking down the isle. We dated for a LONG time, yes. But, we both needed that, no matter how much I complained, we needed that. We needed to make sure that we were making the right decision. We lived together for a year before getting married. So, we also had an idea of how we would get along in the same household. Our love stayed strong, grew and bloomed. So, we made the plunge.
For all of my young un-wed friends, PLEASE make sure that He is the ONE before tying the knot!!! It makes me so sad to hear my friends and family who are close to the edge due to their marriage. My advice is not certified, it is not always right and it is my opinion. All I can offer you is support, love and a shoulder. I really dont know what to tell you when you come to me and say you have NO OTHER CHOICE and you have to leave him. Ladies, I jsut cant stomach it. But, I will still be there. I jsut hope that your next relationship is for real. Please stop and THINK before taking the relationship to the next level. I will be happy for you when you wed whether or not I feel it is a good match.......I have friends who "Think" they are in love and I had just talked them out of KILLING their boyfriend!!!!!
My relationship advice......OK, if you break up more than once in your relationship, it might just not be the one for life. If you have at any point thought of trashing it all, it might not be the one. If you have doubts, dont walk down the isle...If he cheats after you have been "committed" to each other, it might not be the one. If you are grossed out by the sight of him, it might not be the one. If at anytime, you did not want to jump him, it might not be the one. If he does not like certain things about your life (horses for example) he IS NOT THE ONE. If he has ever told you that you are worthless, he IS NOT THE ONE. If you have ever told him that he is worthless....you got it.....NO!!!!
I know that in the heat of a fight, things are said....but, it should not be easy to break up with a guy. If it is, dont marry him. It will be to easy to walk away!!! Love is patient, Love is kind...You know the rest. So, swallow this how ever you want. I love ya!
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
Monday, June 23, 2008
Friends....
None of that Sissy Crap
Are you tired of those sissy 'friendship' poems that always sound good,
but never actually come close to reality?
Well, here is a series of promises that actually speak of true friendship.
You will see no cutesy little smiley faces on this card-
Just the stone cold truth of our great friendship.
1. When you are sad --I will jump on the person who made you sad like a spider monkey jacked up on Mountain Dew!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
2. When you are blue -- I will try to dislodge whatever is choking you.
3. When you smile -- I will know you are plotting something that I must be involved in.
4. When you're scared -- we will high tail it out of here.
5. When you are worried -- I will tell you horrible stories about how much worse it could be until you quit whining, ya big baby!!!!
6. When you are confused -- I will use little words.
7. When you are sick --Stay away from me until you are well again. I don't want whatever you have.
8. When you fall -- I'll pick you up and dust you off.
9. This is my oath...I pledge it to the end. 'Why?' you may ask -- because you are my FRIEND!
Friendship is like peeing your pants,
everyone can see it,
but only you can feel the true warmth.
Send this to 10 of your closest friends,
Then get depressed because you can only think
of ..... like .... 4!
Are you tired of those sissy 'friendship' poems that always sound good,
but never actually come close to reality?
Well, here is a series of promises that actually speak of true friendship.
You will see no cutesy little smiley faces on this card-
Just the stone cold truth of our great friendship.
1. When you are sad --I will jump on the person who made you sad like a spider monkey jacked up on Mountain Dew!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
2. When you are blue -- I will try to dislodge whatever is choking you.
3. When you smile -- I will know you are plotting something that I must be involved in.
4. When you're scared -- we will high tail it out of here.
5. When you are worried -- I will tell you horrible stories about how much worse it could be until you quit whining, ya big baby!!!!
6. When you are confused -- I will use little words.
7. When you are sick --Stay away from me until you are well again. I don't want whatever you have.
8. When you fall -- I'll pick you up and dust you off.
9. This is my oath...I pledge it to the end. 'Why?' you may ask -- because you are my FRIEND!
Friendship is like peeing your pants,
everyone can see it,
but only you can feel the true warmth.
Send this to 10 of your closest friends,
Then get depressed because you can only think
of ..... like .... 4!
Life is Good!
OK, I have to get on here to say that Life Is GOOD! Why you ask??? I am surround by peeps who dont think as much about Life. So, here you guys go!!!
1. you have a roof over your head!
2. You have FOOD to eat!
3. You have at least 1 horse to love on!
4. You still have a truck that runs!!!
5. Some where out there, there is someone that Loves you, Worries about your well being,wants you to be happy, misses you....
6. You can still light up a room with a smile!
7. You have 2 working legs!!! (arms, a brain, ears, a heart...)
8. You have experienced LOVE...Yup, you have!!!! Damn it!!!! It is better to have love and lost than to never have loved at all!!!
9. You still have a voice and can still afford to talk!!!! Talk is NOT CHEAP!!! Think about that one for a minute!
10. Every Day is a New Day!
Wih that said, Jeff and I are happy! Yup, I found out that all I had to do was put on bikini and walla! Oh, and all that stuff that I was worried about was just girl gibberish!!! LOL. Anyhow, PMS is settling right on in, so, not sure if I will be happy in 5 minutes, but, right now, all is good!
1. you have a roof over your head!
2. You have FOOD to eat!
3. You have at least 1 horse to love on!
4. You still have a truck that runs!!!
5. Some where out there, there is someone that Loves you, Worries about your well being,wants you to be happy, misses you....
6. You can still light up a room with a smile!
7. You have 2 working legs!!! (arms, a brain, ears, a heart...)
8. You have experienced LOVE...Yup, you have!!!! Damn it!!!! It is better to have love and lost than to never have loved at all!!!
9. You still have a voice and can still afford to talk!!!! Talk is NOT CHEAP!!! Think about that one for a minute!
10. Every Day is a New Day!
Wih that said, Jeff and I are happy! Yup, I found out that all I had to do was put on bikini and walla! Oh, and all that stuff that I was worried about was just girl gibberish!!! LOL. Anyhow, PMS is settling right on in, so, not sure if I will be happy in 5 minutes, but, right now, all is good!
Sunday, June 22, 2008
Do I need to worry???
OK, this is about sex life and marriage....Nope, its not me! I am ready and willing, but, for some reason, Jeff is a little harder to get in bed....:( Sometimes, I wonder if I am still attractive to him?!?! But, when I throw myself at him, all is well. I just wish that he would throw himself at me. WTF??? I never had this issue with him before! He usually goes to bed an hour after me. Well, it is hard to wake me up and I do appreciate him letting me sleep. But, that narrows our sex life down to the weekends. This weekend however, nothing!!! Argh!!! I threw myself on him last night and he went to sleep. I asked him about doing the deed in the morning and he said that it sounded great. Well, this morning, he woke up and said something about it being time to get out of bed. An hour later, yup, an hour, he got up to go to the potty and said he would be right back. I guess I took his first sentence of wanting to get out of bed so, I got up and made coffee. Well, he laid down on the couch and showed NO interest. Then, he took a shower and i asked him about or morning romp and he said now he is awake and needs to go work in the pasture?!?!? Well, I said something about it and he got defensive.Seriously, what is going on? Am i over reacting and do I need to realize that sleeping next to each other tends to kill the mood? Or do i need to throw myself on him more? Does he think that I am NOT interested? IDK, but, I need it!!!
Saturday, June 21, 2008
My Hair??
OK, well, I had a weird feeling when I was at the store...I decided to change my hair. I really wanted to have it cut, but the salon was FULL! So, I bought some hair color and took ALL of my hair to the color "underneath".....Yup, I made it all dirty blonde instead of light on the outside and dark underneath. I had it highlighted before the wedding back in September, but, that for the most part is growing out. I just wanted to go back to basics. Its kinda dark right now, but I promise that my hair does not hold color. It will either be the color its is suppose to be by Monday or it will be green....
So, tell me what you think!
Friday, June 20, 2008
Hm, Life????
OK, all is well. I changed my meds up a little...back on anatrypaline but instead of 100mg like i was on back in College, I only take 10 mg in place of the klonapan...so, I lost that drugged up feeling!!! YAY!!! That makes me happy! I also started taking Biotin Pills which are suppose to help with energy..IDK, but it is making my hair grow!!
Have you ever kept a journal? Well, I do, but its more of a rant book...I have been writing on the same book for over 4 years now...I decided that I wanted to read some of my past entries...OMG was I such a bitch or what??? How did you guys put up with me? Wait, I used that book to vent on..Hmmmmm...Well, it was nice to read that some of the things I prayed for actually came true. Like what??? Well, moving in and marrying Jeff,Getting Gabe running good on barrels and finding Gauge, she is so much like Ruger...Anyhow, Like i said,this was a rant book. Some of the things I fussed about ended up being no big deal. I got to say, when in doubt, write it down! Going back and reading that book made me realize that life really is not that bad. So, write it down, get it off your chest, and if it still seems important after a day or two, go back and read it! Oh and I want to say that I am sleeping better at night and waking up at 5:30am whether I want to or not!!
Have you ever kept a journal? Well, I do, but its more of a rant book...I have been writing on the same book for over 4 years now...I decided that I wanted to read some of my past entries...OMG was I such a bitch or what??? How did you guys put up with me? Wait, I used that book to vent on..Hmmmmm...Well, it was nice to read that some of the things I prayed for actually came true. Like what??? Well, moving in and marrying Jeff,Getting Gabe running good on barrels and finding Gauge, she is so much like Ruger...Anyhow, Like i said,this was a rant book. Some of the things I fussed about ended up being no big deal. I got to say, when in doubt, write it down! Going back and reading that book made me realize that life really is not that bad. So, write it down, get it off your chest, and if it still seems important after a day or two, go back and read it! Oh and I want to say that I am sleeping better at night and waking up at 5:30am whether I want to or not!!
Sunday, June 8, 2008
Joe
Only My Horses....OMG, it appears I have at least one picture of every horse with their tongue stuck out!!!! ROFLMAO!!! Here is Joe's best tongue picture that I took before taking him to the trainer :)
Saturday, June 7, 2008
Gabe Got Some Schooling Today....Joe is at the Trainer!
Well, I jsut spent $35 for a well needed lesson on Gabe. JR rode him and really worked him over. He said he is being LAZY and has my number.....He has been lying and cheating me...So, we fixed it! Man, it felt so good to run even if it was in a saddle that was too big and stirrups too long, I was kicking my heart out and managed to not come off!!! Dang, that horse can INHALE a barrel!!! I could not believe it!!! JR showed me how to fix our issues and gave me some home work. YUP, we might just be stepping up!!!! I want to wait till July to run him, but that will be here pretty quick! We will be working in the o-ring sometimes with the running martingale and sometimes with out. I need to get his face and get him to quit leaning on the bit! OH, and get his freakin head down when I ask for his face!!!! But, we can do it! I proved that today! I am so readly to run him again!
Joe will be at the trainer (JR) for a month and I sure he will come back with a heck of a handle and many hours of saddle time. I think this trainer will be on my top list for my colts!
Joe will be at the trainer (JR) for a month and I sure he will come back with a heck of a handle and many hours of saddle time. I think this trainer will be on my top list for my colts!
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