Listen. I’m about to turn 47. I have lived a lot of life! I have experienced the drama of being a teenager. The growth of being a college student. The wonder of starting a new job. The awe of marrying the love of my life and the miracle of giving birth! I’m now watching my child go through the same cycles! (Currently the teenage angst) I have learned that sometimes you have to walk away to protect your peace. Sometimes you have to stand strong to protect your sanity. Sometimes you have to bow your head to ask for forgiveness. All of these things are part of life.
Being a mom, I want to be a good example of a sane person for my child. I’m not one to scream and shout. I am not one to pick fights. But I do have strong beliefs and opinions. Just because I don’t shout, yell, or fight does not mean I am not passionate about my beliefs. I feel like you can’t fix stupid. No one hears the yeller. Fighting does nothing but ruffle more feathers and sometimes silence speaks louder than any words spoke. In this day and age, texting has caused more issues than any words spoken. Why? There is no way to hear the tone of voice in a text. Well, unless you do all caps. All caps is a definite “anger” text. I have lost friends over a miss read text. 🧐 Maybe they were not real friends…..but still. Teaching your child how to communicate using words is so important. I remember the first time I told my kid to call his grandpa. He was about 7? He didn’t have a phone yet. He had zero phone skills! So I had to walk him through it. He still struggles to make phone calls. We have had many talks about using your voice to communicate as it’s the best way to get your feelings heard. In fact, he and I have had a lot of deep conversation in the car. He is a smart, passionate, intelligent child of God.
So what happened to make me write this? 🫠 I’m lacking. I’m falling behind. I have not been clearly communicating and that is causing some friction. Not with the people in my house! Nope. With others. See, I have a lot going on with my body right now. I am healing up from my “lateral patella release” surgery (2 weeks today) on my right leg. I also got a new hip 11 months ago on the same side. And, I have a chip fracture and torn ATFL in my right ankle 🫣. Pain alters my personality. I HATE pain meds. I actually only took my post op meds for my knee from that Thursday until the following Monday. I don’t like how they make me feel (think hyperactive rage) of how they trash my digestive system. If I am being honest, they give me a fake feeling of being ok enough to do too much. And I did way too much in the last two weeks. I can’t blame the pain meds past that Monday. Nope. I blame the fall air! I managed to buy a new horse, clean out my trailer, and organize my barn during my supposed to be down time. My brain fog has gotten so bad. I can barely hold a conversation due to the thoughts of what I could be doing. Sorry friends, I am trying!
Thank God for real friends. The ones that say “whoa, we can fight but not cut ties”. I am so used to people walking out of my life the second there is conflict. It’s from a long list of poor choices in friends. So thank you to the real ones that say “hey, it was a bad day, let’s move forward”. You know whom you are! I recently had a texting conversation with someone that made my brain hurt. It got so crazy that I had to stop and protect my peace. When someone gets you so hot over something simple, maybe it’s time to touch grass.literally. I had made a simple request that somehow turned into feeling like I asked for this persons first born. I had to block them yesterday just to protect my peace. Did they know they were blocked? Not sure. Do I still need that thing? Yes I do. Can I carry on without it? Kinda? 👀 But things would be so much easier if this person would just send this thing to me. Does t cost a dime. Not their first born, just need this one thing. See, my brain cannot let it go. I’m to the point where I feel like this person could not be in my life and everything would be fine.
Lucky for me, I married a very grounded man. He is quick to bring me back to earth when I spin out. We all need a person like this in our lives. If you don’t have one, find one! He will listen to what is going through my head and stop me from spiraling. My brain gets going so fast. Swirling all around a text message, that has zero emotion because it’s a TEXT, and he will just say “hold on, maybe they did not mean it the way you think they did”. God bless this man! Sometimes, I just have to block them and go touch grass. No conversation is worth your sanity. Protect your peace. Another thing I do and need to do more is PRAY. God has not let me down yet! Everything that has been sent to me by God has been a blessing, a lesson, or a wake up call.
All of this, this stuff we have, these people in our lives, our homes, pets, livestock, vehicles etc are all a blessing for one reason or another. Do not let anyone steal your PEACE! Remember, a lesson, blessing or a wake up call! Some folks are put in our life just so we can restore our faith in humanity. Some to teach you humility. Some to remind you how to love. Some because your soul needed them. It’s ok to walk away from people that are stealing your joy. Anyhow, thank you to all three of you that read my blog! I’d love to hear how this post made you feel! Comments are open!
