This time last year.....

Looking back....this time last year.....I began to feel my torn him in ways that truly knocked me to my knees. I was trying to work for the fair. I had my son in day care. My horse was doing good but every run crippled me. I finally decided to get checked out about this time last year. Labor Day is when I was told that surgery was in my future. My life was a totally different life this time last year. I was trying to start a new career with all sorts of new adventures. However, God kept putting up road blocks. From my hip to my truck breaking down numerous times, Kolton got sick a lot and overall, I was stressed. The new life I was trying to start was taking a toll on my family. 

God has a plan y'all. We have to listen! I really wanted that career. I really thought it was perfect! But no. God had other plans. While I was struggling to be the best employee, mom, wife and me, God was saying STOP.  I wasn't listening. God told me stop many many times. It literally took me collapsing for me to hear him. I'm not a quitter. I am persistent. Hard headed. When I get something in my head, I have to finish it. I was HUMBLED. And to this day I thank HIM for that. No, God doesn't hurt you. No, he doesn't cause you stress and pain. But he does speak to you and he does want you to listen. I needed to SLOW DOWN. I need to be at home. I need to work on the issues at hand before taking on more. So we lost a paycheck but my son got his mama back. My horse is in shape. My business is growing. And guess what? We still have food on the table! 

Moral of the story, when you feel stressed, broken and/or just down right stretched too thin, STOP and pray. LISTEN for the answer. I could have saved my whole family a lot of stress by walking away from that "dream job" this time of last year. I would have not been in so much pain that I was dang near wheel chair bound. I could have spared my husband and my son from seeing me drop to my knees, crying in pain. All for a pay check? Some times we need to stop and reevaluate our situation and make adjustments to get back on HIS path for us. I am sure that there are many forks in my road and that I will soon stay once again but I am praying that I have the STRENGTH to stop and listen! Don't get buried so deep that you can't hear your own cry for help. Don't let the love and light of God bet shut out of your train of thought. 

Just something I wanted to share. I think we all have these moments where we forgot to stop and listen!